Schizophrenia and it’s symptoms

Mistake me if I’m wrong, but haven’t you argued the facts about being Confused and reacting to something unpredictable, like our mind and body is not our own? “It’s not just you!”

Let me continue incase you haven’t been there. Schizophrenia is a case where people become delusional and interpret reality abnormally, either most days or everyday. Most deny the fact that they even have it. It can be a little hard to understand what abnormal reality would be all about but I’ll give you some sight to what a scitzophrenics day is like.

Imagine waking up every morning feeling like you’ve had no sleep because you kept waking up during the night. Not only that but your already agitated at every little thing, spite the fact that the morning only started which makes it difficult to react right. Now you’ve gotten over your agitation and restlessness, you then start to over imagine things which can lead to over analysing which can cause to much emotion, then again makes you restless and disfunctional and during the day you get other symptoms such as social isolation, aggression, excitability, hostility, disorganised behaviour, self-harm, repetitive movement and plenty other symptoms, all of these are signs you have schizophrenia.

Hopefully I cleared the air of what living with schizophrenia is most about

After painting that picture of what schizophrenia is all about I’ll now tell you a short story of my days using drugs which caused me to become scitzophrenic.

But before I do that here’s a list of symptoms I should of listed earlier:

Behavioural: social isolation, disorganised behaviour, aggression, agitation, compulsive behaviour, excitability, hostility, repetitive movements, self-harm, or lack of restraint

Cognitive: thought disorder, delusion, amnesia, belief that an ordinary event has special and personal meaning, belief that thoughts aren't one's own, disorientation, mental confusion, slowness in activity, or false belief of superiority

Mood: anger, anxiety, apathy, feeling detached from self, general discontent, loss of interest or pleasure in activities, elevated mood, or inappropriate emotional response

Psychological: hallucination, paranoia, hearing voices, depression, fear, persecutory delusion, or religious delusion

Speech: circumstantial speech, incoherent speech, rapid and frenzied speaking, or speech disorder

Also common: fatigue, impaired motor coordination, lack of emotional response, or memory loss.

Back in 2017, when I was 17 years old I stupidly decided for the first time in my life, NOT even thinking of the outcome or set backs it may bring to go and try Methamphetamines for the first time with some of my girlfriends (who I won’t name). At first I was all happy and cheerful and confidant, not a care in the world I even found a new boyfriend who at the time was a dealer, so it was always easy to come by but unfortunately we used heavily every day for about 1 year straight. Things in my life started to get a little messy and I left my job and stopped talking to some of my girlfriends, I became miserable and upset with my looks as not only was my mind fading but them too! It really is a stuggle using drugs and even you notice things in yourself which just aren’t right. But because of my addictive personality I’ve now been using for more then 6 years and about 2 years ago in 2018 people started to notice differences in my behaviour. Things like I’d be talking to someone then go all hazed, to just the other day my mother heard me chatting away for hours on end to myself. I sometimes even think someone else is controlling my movement and thought pattern.

Schizophrenia can be a really scary thing for everyone who suffers from it or around someone with this illness. Earlier I mentioned some symptoms of schizophrenia, all of those are what you need to watch out for in someone. Don’t get me wrong people with schizophrenia can be really nice, beautiful people that just need some attending to.