Quarantine after quarantine

Hello, so I didn’t think quarantine was going to happen but when it did I felt the same except for the people losing loved ones. I was quarantined and will continue to be quarantined after.

Iv been living like this because I live in a building where I get bullied by workers and some tenants, just pick on what I am not doing or make fun of me and my premature son for being delayed in school and these people were the same ones picking on him and live in my building for example a lady I showed my sons progress to said he’s not up to part and kept saying it everytime I would show her his progression.

I have a friend come everyday because my building is a big community environment, all they do is judge and put me down I have no family and every time I go out I get some type of put downs I developed post traumatic stress disorder and have severe migraines from pinched nerves and the dr is still trying to find out why. so I am constantly having dr,appointments and caring for my son. They push me to my limits by humiliating me, I tried moving but got denied many times due to low income. And they won’t transfer me. And I got herassed by Security and I reported them laughing at me and it just got worse because now they are mad and make others gang up on me with the maintenance. So now I just stay quite and stay at home so that I don’t argue and get worse or have more issues before my son was born, I used to defend myself but it made a big mess because so many people live in this 45 story building and they are judgmental basically what you have is how they treat you so everytime I have to run to get away from people in the building provoking me to fight and argue.

I asked the world why, I tried but I’m forced to keep it in to not make a scene. And just not be myself it’s not easy feeling creative and doing my art if I feel down everytime I go out so now that my friend goes to the store for me till I get to move I have to hide or cry when I do go out because when I yell they call security and make more people involved I literally quarantined since my dad died and wait until I get to move. It’s funny because now that they are quarantined how I am all day there is less judgment because now they have no job and have to stay home they should not treat me this way crises happens to anyone and I should not be picked on because I’m alone and have it complicated to live here with them.I never get treated like this when I’m far away from my neighborhood. I put a repunzle vintage doll at my window looking out and that’s how I feel stuck in a tower waiting till the day I get out looking out the window till the day I get released been here for 20 years and been trying to move for the last 7 years. To much pain in this place.

Sometimes I want to take myself out because nothing is changing to let me out. I have many people tell me wow, look at this huge apartment why are you complaining I said if there is no peace there is nothing the space does not matter I rather be happy and creative then sad and uninterested in my creations. The space means nothing if you have no peace of mind, Always remember that when you have peace you will be your true self or find yourself!

To be quarantined after quarantine.