Latest Stories
Most recently published stories in Psyche.
Escape Anxiety
I was very interested in writing for Vocal to see what the hype was all about. I was unsure of what I could possibly write about. I don't feel I'm very interesting and I've never been very popular. While I may stand out in a crowd due to my upbeat personality and constantly changing hair color, inside I feel anxious, shy, and always worried. Just writing these few lines I think I may have just found what I know best about and could hopefully help change others life with. How to push yourself to be in the spot light when inside you are anxious as all hell.
By Megan Allaire7 years ago in Psyche
Tales of a Lost Girl
I don’t belong here. I’m not like them. I thought to myself as I disconnected my eyes from my bed buddy who continued talking. I couldn’t completely make out what she was doing in her bed across from mine with how dimly lit our vacant room was. Mid-conversation, I realized she kept bringing her hand up, would lick her fingers, and then dropped her hand back down underneath an old jading blanket with the words FREMONT HOSPITAL MENTAL INSTITUTE imprinted on it. I figured it would be best if I pretended to doze off, then to try and make friends. My bed buddy’s name was Rose. She was twelve-years-young and talked about how her parents had left her at the mental institute while they went on a cruise. She modeled for a living. Some days she spoke with a British accent, as she talked about her extravagant lifestyle. When a staff member would address her, though, the hood in her came out. We were bed buddies at Fremont Hospital.
By Sandra Yvette7 years ago in Psyche
Assault- Invasion of My Person
Working as a private music teacher you get to know most of the people you work with very well because you see them one on one, every week. Music is a very personal and emotional process so when you are working with someone in that arena you tend to forge a bond.
By Nocturne Cadence7 years ago in Psyche
What's It like Living with Depression and Anxiety?
Mental health today is finally coming to the forefront as a topic that people are willing to listen to. More and more influencers are coming out and speaking openly about their struggle with mental health problems. One of my favorite examples; radio and tv personality Charlamagne Tha God, even has a book coming out discussing his battle with Anxiety. But what is it like to actually struggle mentally? What’s that fight like and how does it compare to what others on the outside looking in see? Well, let me take you on a tour by sharing my battles.
By Justin Monsanto7 years ago in Psyche
Breaking the Hold You Had on Me
It was 2017 and at the time, I thought I was just like everyone else. Working to get ahead, just serving tables full time until something new came along or until I found my career path. Then, I was reintroduced to you at a party one night after turning twenty one. We had met a couple of times outside of class back in high school, but our times together never ended well. As the party went on, we got to know each other more and more and at the time I thought you were so cool and fun to be around. As the days continued to roll by, I found myself meeting up with you after I would leave work. Sometimes we’d meet at bars, sometimes I’d just pick you up and we’d go to my house. We had the greatest times, even went to parties together and made the greatest of memories. As time went on though, I noticed that you were beginning to be around more and more; until eventually it was like you never left my side and you were starting to get in the way of some things. If I had family plans, you’d find a way to get me to bail and crash a party with you or convince me to call off work so we could get together. I’ll admit, at the time it wasn’t a big deal to me; I enjoyed your company. I enjoyed our times together so much, the giddy laughter, the loud and vibrant music in our background, it was exciting. It was a thrill, until you started introducing me to your friends. That’s where everything fell apart but You wouldn’t let me go. It got to the point where I wasn’t showing up to work and if I had then it wasn’t for long because you’d call me with an excuse for me to leave, even my managers knew what was going on. We’d be out in the city all night, getting mixed up in all the wrong things, causing disturbances everywhere we went together. Your friends were even attached at my hip, always asking me to take them with me or to say hello before I leave, it was taking a toll on me. I ended up being with you and your friends so much that I lost track of everything around me, forgetting important dates and forgetting things I had done or needed to do, I was losing sleep and not eating; just to be with you and your friends. I thought you guys liked me, that you wanted to be with me because I was great, not because you wanted to tear me down. That’s exactly what you did, you and your friends had such a grip on me that I lost myself to you, I had forgotten who I was and every moment without you left me in cold shakes and paralyzing anxiety. I lost my Job because of you, I lost my apartment because of you, I even lost my friends because once I decided to drop you, you latched on to them and kept dragging them into your schemes.
By Brendon N.7 years ago in Psyche
The Heart
How do we express how we feel? Writing, dancing, singing? Emotions bleed through all of us, through everything we do. But what happens to us if our emotions are blocked from being expressed? And what if the person we want to express things to, we can't due to distance, or simply have no way to get into contact with them?
By Elijah Taylor7 years ago in Psyche
The Little Tremors Before the Quake
Something happens to me when I watch crime drama. I’ve always been a fan of all things dark and spooky — crime mystery fits nicely into that. It hits a sweet spot in my interests John Milton called divinest melancholy. It’s also a warning sign I’m falling into depression.
By Lynne Rush7 years ago in Psyche
Intuitive Painting for Health
Like so many people living in modern society, I deal with stress on a daily basis. The stress may be from work, or lack there of, depending upon the day. It may be due to family commitments, the political air that pervades our lives, or financial struggles. Regardless of the reason for the stress, it is imperative that we understand the negative impact continued uncontrolled stress has on our lives and that we learn how to deal with it.
By Nalda Parker7 years ago in Psyche
Avoidant Personality Disorder
Avoidant personality disorder is characterized by a need to avoid people, support, and compassion, laced by an inadequacy component. People with avoidant personality are sensitive to what people think about them to the point of paranoia. Avoidant people feel like they can’t make it socially, imagining their own ineptitude. People with avoidant personality avoid school, work, anywhere people scrutinize them. Any human interaction there is avoidant people, avoid because they feel that inadequate. They want to avoid people and that’s their bottom line. Avoidant people are shy, or timid, the quintessential loner. They have low self-esteem and are hypersensitive to rejection.
By Iria Vasquez-Paez7 years ago in Psyche
