I had to loose my mind to find my spirit

This wasnt the first time I went on a manic episode, but it was the first time I got put of it quickly.

A big realization came down this time. This time I thought what if this is like what the ancients would have called an enlightenment moment, what if I am just suffering and being misstreated at the hospital is just because theh dont know how to manage what I am going through. What if I would have been born in a Shaman comunity and the Shaman would have guided me into what I was becoming.

Then my intuition came down and said, youve got this, you dont have to suffer anymore. Use your intuition to navigate all thats happening, and thats when I realized I have been hiding from myself for years and I have been hiding my authentic self to others with the fear tgag I would be put in the hospital again.

But then this burst of Courage came forth and I realized I did not have to hide anymore.

I understood that a manic episode is nothing but a complete burst of energy, an upgrade of your system where you are just so super connected to source and have nonnstop downloads of what you are meant to know. Your connection to the spirit realm is so dieect that you have access to high levels of knowledge and you know all that is, but yet noone can understand you because they are at a different level of understanding.

Then the realization of my label came forth. I realized I was living in hiding because of the label that was placed on me. I was afraid of being my spiritual self because I was ashamed of my label and thought people are going to think my spirituality is just caused by my bipolarity and it isnt real. More so because my family is very Christian, and all I say to them in regards to my spirituality believes is seen as unholy.

But what if Mental Health Disorders are just Spiritual Disconect Disorders. What if, MANIA is a complete out of body WOW experience, where you feel so great and conected to god, that is so big, you go to the extreme because you are just to excited to be in your skin and to receive so much pivotal information and understanding of the world.

What if, DEPRESSION is that complete disconnect from spirit, because in my own experience if you feel disconected from source because of fears and deseption, you feel you dont belong in this world and you arent afraid to die because you are not meant to be here and have no way of feeling joy. Again a disconect from god, source, universe, whatever you want to call it.

What if, SCHIZOPHRENIA is people that are way too open and unprotected from the spiritual world and can see what we all cant see and wouldnt you feel crazy if you saw what others coulnt. Though if they were guided by Shamans and spiritual elders, they would be able to descern whats real and whats not and what to follow and what not and how to remove bad spirits from their path.

Anxiety, another disconect from source because you dont trust that everything is meant to be at the right time in divine order, stress again because of not trust. We tend to stress and be anxious for things that have not happened yet and may never happen yet we suffer in the now from not trusting source.

So my takeaway from this is, whenever you feel uneasy, just breath and bring yourself back to your heart centre and allow faith to take over and believe that everything is going to be ok. Because even if is not ok, you will be ok in the end.

Carla