Do doctors and nurses encounter deceased patients without any emotional or psychological fluctuations?

There must be emotional fluctuations, and the hearts of medical staff are not made of stone. I am an operating room nurse who has worked for 6 years. I have seen too many patients who have turned the tide and rescued but have not come. I am used to seeing me parting with life and death. Not long after that, I burst into tears and collapsed. I was on the night shift that day, and I remembered a series of urgent phone calls. "There is an emergency operation, a 3-year-old child, intestinal perforation, septic shock, it is more urgent, and the operation must be performed immediately." After receiving the call, he immediately notified the anesthesiologist, and then quickly prepared the room equipment for anesthesia. Another colleague has already gone to pick up the patient. . The surgeon and the anesthesiologist are in place quickly. When the child was pushed into the operating room, he looked much smaller than a normal 3-year-old and his face was pale. Looking at the family members, the children's parents, grandparents, grandparents, grandparents and grandparents are all there, all of them are tired, and all of them have red eyes, but their eyes are full of expectation. The operation went smoothly. The anesthesia was routinely followed by waking up and extubation. The child was slightly restless, but the vital signs were normal. I'm ready to help get the baby to the resuscitation room. But after the anesthetic was stopped after the operation, it was found that the child could not remove the tube, there was basically no spontaneous breathing, and the blood oxygen soon came down. As a result, because the child has been unable to take care of it, his condition is relatively serious. That day, the child stayed with us all night. That afternoon, many colleagues in the department were busy around this child. I didn't eat from the morning to eleven in the evening. Didn't drink or go to the toilet. been taking care of this child. Several times my colleagues asked me to eat something first, but I declined, saying I didn't want to eat. At that time, I really didn't want to eat, and I didn't have any appetite, watching such a small and cute child suffer from this kind of pain. It's really uncomfortable. It was not until the next morning that the child stabilized a little and was transferred to the neonatal intensive care unit with a tube. During the long time since the child was transferred, I sent messages to my friend in the pediatric department many times to ask about the child's condition. She said that the child's condition was not very good, and they were also busy with the child almost all day in the department. After I listened to it, I felt very uncomfortable, and I was thinking silently in my heart, dear child, you must work hard to persevere. Finally, at noon the next day, I, who was on the circuit for surgery, heard the bad news from the pediatrics department. The child is gone. Tears came down in an instant, and I just felt that my eyes were blurred and I couldn't see anything. At that time, my mind was full of that cute little baby. My colleague comforted me, saying that this is the nature of our work, don't be so emotional, and everyone has done their best. do not be upset. I also forgot how the surgery was done after that day. I only remember that it was difficult to control my emotions on the way home from get off work, and I cried all the way. When I got home and lay on the sofa for two hours, I can't tell how sad it is. Life is so fragile. I don't know how long it took, I fell asleep crying on the sofa, dreamed of that cute child, cried and said to me, "Auntie, I'm so hurt, I'm so uncomfortable", I woke up with real tears in the corners of my eyes. of. In fact, many people in our department wept like me that day, and felt sorry for this three-year-old baby. When you are dying in a hospital bed, your family and friends may not really want you to live, but your doctors and nurses must be trying their best to keep you alive.