Dive Deep

Have you ever experienced having a calling? Something that truly cannot be pushed out of mind no matter how much you try to deny. It’s terrifying and exhilarating at the same time. You start to question your sanity. Everything that existed before that moment you perceive as simultaneously pointless but extraordinarily crucial in leading up to this very realization. Full disclosure: I’ve been seeking a calling since the purpose driven life craze hit during my developmental years and honestly had no idea it would blindside me almost 20 years later during a pandemic lockdown.

Although I have existed as an empowered fringe person for over a decade now through my pursuits in art, eclectic spirituality and queer exploration, I’ve found that even in the most eccentric of communities it is still odd to talk about “psychic” experiences and concepts with assurance. Society has cultivated in a way that values scientific proof over the supernatural, understandably and I’m not objecting to this; it’s just that science is still evolving—it’s not perfect and in juxtaposition to modernistic obsession with perfection, the average person is more concerned with appearing “right” or “normal” than holding intellectual integrity in something that is undefined, intangible and largely misunderstood.

You see, there is this invisible dark void between “normal” and “madness” that not many people in Western civilization like to talk about. In ancient and tribal cultures, our divine connection to each other and every living thing is known more as a fact and there are teachings, customs and boundaries that help to wield this connection in a beneficial way. As revolution and colonization spread throughout the world, life sped up and this connection has been mostly forgotten and in some cases, actively pushed away if not societally severed. This is not to say that this connection ever disappeared; so when us millennial babes start to cognizance what someone is thinking or can feel the emotions or physical sensations of a close friend, we start to think something is wrong with us because these sensations are not normalized. They are actually worse than not normalized, they are cast off as mental illness.

Now I know this is a delicate line to tread, there are those that are actually ill with invasive thoughts and voices but I would hope at this point in time any intellectual can see that it is not so black and white when it comes to supernatural powers of the mind. Atypical function does not need to always be cast off as an issue and there is debate that this otherwise natural phenomenon of connection can turn into illness when a person decides there is something internally wrong, pushes this inherent connection away and starts to narrate that they are broken or unloveable. It’s personally taken me thousands of dollars in therapy and endless hours researching to be encouraged by “authority figures” that I have a gift and am not feeding a psychosis. If it weren’t for my community along with financial means, I don’t know that I would have ever gotten to the other side of accepting myself. Not everyone is so lucky.

Those of us who have felt the numinous know it cannot be denied and it’s only a matter of time until science catches up. Largely rejecting religion as a means of control from the past, we select our truths from various teachings exposed from endless searching to feel understood and connected. Although this has been my reality for a while now, I know that during the stillness of quarantine, so many others opened up to this same welling inside of them —the connection to the infinite that is beyond our conscious understanding. During this time for me, I was pushed to the edge and when I took to the largest tangible resource I had to connect: the internet, I was swept up in rage, grief and discontentedness in the circumstances of the time. Even after taking patience to open up past these low vibration emotions, it was difficult to identify with others that are searching to develop intuitive gifts in an intellectual way. There is simply not enough support for accessing these societally degraded states of mind outside of religious hierarchy or new age individualists.

My purpose in starting My Mystic Academia is to give context to other developing intuitives so they can evolve their skills, share ESP experiences, learn from like-minded others and be part of a supportive community. Especially those that identify as empaths or who work regularly within the field of mystic/psychic art, living aware and awake requires mental and emotional hygiene. In my search for ways to positively implement my gifts, I’ve struggled to find resources that were not surface value, toxically positive, rooted in fixing a deficiency within or just plain impractical.

I started working as an online psychic and tarot card reader during the quarantine lockdown in 2020. I would like to preface the remainder of this passage with the disclaimer that I do not claim to know the future. The term psychic is a blanket term and means something different to everyone. My process is rooted in the present; tapping into the now gives the querent more power in addressing what is coming in from the past or changing course if a future forecast is not desirable. I answer specific questions the client asks and never assert “predictions”. Only simple people have simple futures and I’ve noticed most individuals are exceptionally complex. I’ve molded my gift to function like a channel where I connect clients through me to an infinite place of knowing within and once in that state, I just surrender to that force and let communication flow. I have invested a lot of time in preparing a specific method that uniquely assess the situation from a few different perspectives depending on what the querent is seeking. The only conscious work that exists during a reading is that of me holding space between my ego and what is being channeled; I liken this to quieting my mind so that I can speak directly from my heart.

It’s difficult for me to explain how incredibly fulfilled I am by the work I’ve been doing with reading for others. When this calling first came to me, I fully rejected it with everything in me until I could not escape the curiosity. Once the idea was leaked into my mind I started to realize that I had already been reading for people for years without realizing it, sometimes to a fault. I had been seeking out people like me my whole life, driven whole heartedly by the need to belong. There used to be a part of me that got infuriated by day-to-day useless small-talk that now gets completely satiated by uninhibited free flowing dialogue cutting right to the heart of the matter. By far and large, most people who come seeking my advice are wanting me to romance read for them regarding another person. I average around 45 readings per week. However, what has been the ultimate validation for me: I regularly get to talk to people that feel like they are like me, don’t know what to do about it and want to know if I feel it from them too.

I guess this is the real, underlying reason I am starting My Mystic Academia: to provide a place of belonging where there currently isn’t one. The thing I really want to emphasize is that I am not one of these woo-woo spiritualists that likes to talk in ambiguous metaphors or blindly surrender to their doctrine. I hold no allegiance to any one religion or set of teachings. Instead I am offering curated highlights where information is applicable. Part of my struggle is that I am remarkably logical. Science and education hold my foundation. I have had to search harder than someone who freely gives faith in concepts they cannot understand. I am the skeptic. I like to get my brain fully around what is literally happening and I have figured out some really interesting things.

Please help make this dream a reality. The funding and Memberful subscription would be an incredible blessing to help propel this idea into reality within a couple months. See below website mock-up/conceptualization: