Beyond the Blues
Understanding depression is difficult; hear from Psyche's community of peers on their experiences with this mood disorder.
Hey Depression!
Depression, Listen up! I have something to say, YOU SUCK!! YOU SUCK!!! YOU SUCK!!!! I'm sure you've heard this before from millions of people but now you are going to hear it from me!. You have been messing up my life since I was 8 years old and I hate you for that. I hate you for all the times you left me crying on the floor wishing I were dead. That happened a lot over the years. I'm curious. Does that make you proud? I let you control me year after year. I didn't go out a lot because you prefer I stay home, alone, crying in my closet over what a pathetic creature I was. I even helped you sometimes by making lists about all the ways I was worthless. I believed you when you said, " No one would care if you didn't show up." Depression you were wrong, but I'm sure you knew that and you were laughing at me for believing you. I hurt my family by not showing up to parties that were important to them. I hurt my friends by canceling our plans at the last minute because I ruined their evenings. No, you preferred to have me stay in and self-medicate. I used over the counter sleep medication, pills that were prescribed for migraines, and sometimes I would get my Mom to give me Valium. I just wanted to sleep to get away from you. There is no depression in sleep. Sleep was my best friend. It was my only way to really cope with the sadness and pain. I started drinking Nyquil like it was soda just to be able to sleep continuously. I started that at age 12. My Mother also suffered from depression and she took medication as well. The meds she took caused drowsiness. She also escaped in sleep. When I was 15 I started stealing her medication in order to get back to my friend sleep.
By Teresa Wegrzyn5 years ago in Psyche
Antidote to Depression is Gratitude
Humorous depression memes are some of the best sources of humor for those who suffer from this disorder. Some of these are extremely funny depression memes, especially in that they lighten up a serious psychological problem. The truth is that any time in a person's life, even in the early stages of life, a person might feel hopeless. This lack of hope is what makes depression so difficult to handle.
By Dixie Welch5 years ago in Psyche
Meantime Chronicles
Hey there, how's it going? My name is Adrian Chambliss and I suffer from depression. I won't go into too many details, but I imagine I'm like most people in the sense that I don't like talking about my feelings or even acknowledging them. It's not that you mind talking about it, but some things tend to kill the mood and you don't want to appear to be a downer. I get it. That's why I wanted to do a daily blog thing to help navigate my own journey while I work through getting better. My hope and goal is that by the end of this, I'd have something to help explain myself to others, as well as give a sense of calm or normalcy for some.
By Adrian Chambliss5 years ago in Psyche
Heavy
I lay awake, gripping my blanket tight around my shoulders with one hand and holding my pillow close with the other. My eyes are closed, but I can't sleep. I've been like this for hours, shifting restlessly, longing for the sweet release of sleep. But it just won't come. I am fully aware that each restless toss and turn drives me further from my goal, but the movements come unbidden.
By Vina Lethane5 years ago in Psyche
Dealing with Depression in a High Demanding Society
We have all had our bad days. Those days where we feel completely beside ourself and seem to have a harder time getting through our daily routines. It can be mentally exhausting just trying to work through simple tasks we manage any other time effortlessly. For some people these bad days can last anywhere from a few weeks to a few years. This is commonly known as Depression. Depression can affect your life in many ways. Especially those who suffer with it longer than others. Dealing with depression in a society that requires you to be high functioning at all times poses its own individual risks.
By Esctacy Artistry5 years ago in Psyche
Why does depression exist?
Ever since I got bullied in middle school; I always wonder why depression had to come to me. Nothing I did was bad to the people that bullied me. So why does depression exist? What made it exist and when?! Why are there bad people in this world who want to hurt people so badly? Do you ever wonder that? Do you ever wonder why people bully you or hurt you just for no reason? I do! I always wonder what did I ever do to these people that made them hurt me.
By Gracie Crusinberry5 years ago in Psyche
Mad World
Perhaps we all carry within ourselves the potential of our own destruction that we battle with in our own way. And this friction is what causes suffering in our lives. Maybe everything inherently carries within it, its own destruction. Perhaps in life, we constantly fight that pull to self-destruct in whatever way is ours.
By Nikki Albert5 years ago in Psyche
My journey through depression
I have changed over the past year as a person. I’ve changed into somebody I never thought I would ever become. It’s like my life has changed around me and I’m not part of it anymore. I feel like I’m a totally different human on a different planet and it’s all down to my anxiety and depression. I would like to share my story below with you for anybody going through the same situation. I would like to think I can help somebody and bring that light back into somebody else’s life.
By Crazy story writer ✍️ 5 years ago in Psyche
Depression In The Time of Covid-19
It’s not easy to talk about depression, but here it goes. Depression is seems to be such a taboo topic in the world, and it’s about time that we make it easier and more fluid to talk about. We have an entire month dedicated to mental health awareness. If only people were open and honest about what they're facing. I've decided that I've had enough of hiding my mental health issues from the world and that now is the perfect time to talk about them. I have gone through some serious depressive moments during lockdown. Whether it’s waking up feeling like it’s “Groundhog Day” again, or having it be 2pm on a Wednesday and feeling like I don’t have any purpose. This is a time when feeling our emotions can get too heavy for us, especially when we really haven’t been able to do much. Being in isolation can be extremely difficult as well. I've become so much more of a social butterfly since moving to California that reverting to being in my home alone has become increasingly hard. Recently, I’ve felt this depression set in. I was sitting on my couch and started looking around. I had laundry everywhere, dirty dishes in the sink, and hadn’t washed my hair in three days. I realized then that I was depressed. I was sad that my life felt like it was going around in circles. Everyday has the same routine, but that’s not how “normal” life works. I started crying uncontrollably and didn't know what to do with myself. It was such a crazy and emotional moment, but also a massive breakthrough for me.
By Alexandra Picerne5 years ago in Psyche
Lets Have A Talk
All my life. That's how long I have struggled with my own personal depression issues. It wasn't easy to figure out and didn't take until I was almost 30 to figure out. That's how hard it is to actually diagnose depression. A lot of people wont talk about it because of that. There's many reasons that people either wont talk about it or try the best they can to hide it. Some of those reasons include:
By L. A. Davis5 years ago in Psyche
