Addicted Minds

Illegal street drugs play a major part in the downfall of society. People lie, steal and cheat just to get their next fix. They have no idea how much they are hurting people, they just want to get high. Causing complete chaos does not matter to them, because they do not realize they are. It gets more difficult everyday to deal with the situations drugs cause. They break down some of the strongest people, one of the most tragic effects of drugs , and are constantly ruining lives. I, too, was a drug addict. I lost myself many times trying to hide behind drugs. Allowing the drugs to take control, only for a slight moment of "so-called" happiness.

I always thought of myself as not addicted. I never thought that way being that once I was over one drug, I could quit using anytime I wanted. I was able to quit most drugs easily. I would not crave the drug. I did not fall off the wagon hardly ever. I would simply put the drug down and never think to pick it up again. I simply could not imagine that I was bad off. I wondered "how could I be an addict if I could easily walk away?". Of course I was completely wrong…

Instead of leaving all drugs alone, like most addicts have to do to recover, I would pick up another habit with a different drug. There was normally a slight gap in between drugs, but bottom line, I was giving up one drug for another. I was in a vicious cycle and had no idea that I needed to escape. I could not envision myself this way. It was not until I completely gave up all drugs, that I could see what was actually happening.

I lived for years believing "I have it all together, everything is just fine”. But everything was not fine. I had absolutely nothing together. I lost multiple cars, many places to live, family, friends, money, jobs, everything. But the worst thing I lost was myself but that is what happens when you let drugs take over. It was pure hell and I thought I was good. I could not see how the drugs affected my life, relationships and behavior. All I could see was the drug itself.

You see, what happens with an addict, they are already down on themselves, so their spirit is broken. Once a person's spirit is broken, they tend to trust less and less, until they trust nothing from anyone, even the closest person to them. In your mind, you are completely alone. You, then, have no one to vent to. No one to tell you "it will all be okay".

The drugs then take complete control of your life. Every moment awake becomes about the drug and how to get it. Normal everyday life is rushed through so that you can hurry up and find your next fix. Nothing else seems to matter any longer. Time passes by so quickly that you have no idea how you are, where you are or how you got there. Normally, nothing significant happens in that time frame except negativity. So you really have no recollection of the precious lost time.

I, somehow, escaped this misery, I broke the chains and put drugs down. I have finally found myself again, but this time, I will not be lost again. I really want to tell you more of my story but, if I told you my story all at once, you would not come back. I hope this helps at least one person. I love my readers, without you, this would not be possible!!! 🤗