Daddy Oh Daddy!

~Daddy~

What kind of secret could you have

that's so bad?

What did you do, that you would think

we'd never forgive you for?

tell me, what went through your mind

the moment you thought walking out

on me was so kind?

Daddy oh daddy

what did you do?

Daddy oh daddy I used to love you!

I was so angry with her

and not just with you,

I never would have bit you

if I knew leaving is what you'd do

I was only 3 years old

when we were torn apart,

I wasn't trying to be cold

I was just being 'smart'

Daddy oh daddy

what did I do?

Daddy oh daddy

I used to love you!

I became more and more like you

Each and every day, (or so I thought)

for that was the only way

I could keep you alive

in my memories somehow

as I went throughout my life,

with the hope that you'd

come back someday

and never go away,

Daddy oh daddy

what did you do?

Daddy oh daddy

I used to love you!

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I screamed for you once

when Mommy and I had a fight,

It was you that I was needing

to love me and hold me tight

I NEVER mentioned you again

after that night,

because it was then that

I suddenly realized

how stupid the whole thing was,

I had a gift mommy would never understand

and a daddy who would never be there

to give me a helping hand,

so I knew from this point on

alone is where I'd stand

for my 'family'?

just didn't understand me,

A few tried

but they just never would

Daddy oh daddy

what did I do?

Daddy oh daddy

I used to love you!

You were the only one

that I believed never hurt me,

until I was old enough to understand

you did something that's much worse,

you deserted me;

using a reason you thought might do?

But all the love in the World can never

make up for the love I lost

from living without you.

If you loved me as much as they told me you did,

You would have always been there for me,

because that's what love is

I was happy and loved my life till I was 3

but all of that changed

the moment you walked out of my life

Permanently;

Daddy oh daddy

What did you do?

Daddy oh daddy

I used to love you!

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When I look in my baby book

there's so much that I see,

but what stands out the most

are the pictures of you and me,

it seems I can't remember them

no matter how hard I try

this makes you an important part

of my life,

until I remember or figure out why;

these pictures are the only things

left of you that I've got

without them you wouldn't be

at least not a part of me.

without having one memory of you

there is a question that stands

to be asked,

Are any of the things she's said

is any of what my Mom said true?

Did you really do those kinds of things?

Did you really tell her all of that>

Did you do any of that with me>

Are 'any' of the things she's said,

Is 'Any' of it true?

Is any of that, maybe why

My mind won't release any memories of you?

Or am I just being paranoid,

And the reason's more like this;

that the pain of my loss

was too much for me,

so I wiped it all out

of my memory

when I was a little girl

who so terribly missed

her Daddy!

The questions are many

that I'd like to ask

but do to the evidence of the years

gone passed,

Chances are that's something

I'll never get to do

So I put my thoughts of you to rest

And know that I did do my best

by writing all these words to you

with hope one day,

that you may read

my first book of Poetry;

where you'll find these words from me.

Daddy oh daddy

What did you do?

Daddy oh daddy

What did I do?

Daddy oh daddy

Where the hell are you?

Daddy oh daddy

I used to love you!