DownFalls!

~ DownFalls~

I’m in shock,

I’ve let it happen again

Only this time,

The guy left me a tip

I don’t want to believe

That this has happened to me,

I had plans for my future

And this wasn’t it.

Another guy took me again

Another guy down another dead end,

Another guy just a One-way friend.

I’m confused about what I feel,

Until the moment that it’s real

Then I know I want to let it all go,

And bring it to an end.

And maybe have some self-respect again:

Except, the cycle always wins?

I don’t want to be hurting

But the fear of being alone,

Never goes away

My Heart wants a home

Someplace to call her own,

So in another man’s arms, I lay

Trying to find a place my heart

Can stay:

Another guy took me again

Another ride down another dead end,

Another guy just a one way friend,

I’m angry about the fact

That you’re not the ‘only’ one to blame,

I’m angry because now

It’s too late for me to change,

The actions have been done:

A failure is what I’ve become.

No longer will I be able to follow

My dreams of success,

For this time my actions

Have caught up with me,

In full…

I cannot blame this mess

On the innocent life that grows

Inside of me;

It’s my fault I never stopped to consider

The Downfalls and what they might be,

I don’t understand why I didn’t think first?

But in the final end I was the one

Who paid the price,

Time and time again:

Another guy took me again

Another ride, down another dead end,

Another guy took me again

Another guy just a one way friend.

The whole thing has left me

Feeling like I’ve lost control,

Over myself, My feelings,

My life, and My soul,

I’m ashamed about the fact

That I have to face,

When I go home

What my family and friends will think,

When they take a look at me.

They’ll talk to each other

As though I’m not there,

“For someone so smart, she sure was stupid,

How disappointing to see her end up in such a mess.”

Oh how they will never look at me the same

And I have no one else but me to blame.

Another guy took me again

Another ride, down another dead end

Another guy took me again

Another guy just a one way

FRIEND!