You Good?

I eat a chemical breakfast

of pills they say are good for me

I inhale artificial air

just two pumps a day is better for my lungs

at least that's what they say

I down a pot of coffee

with a breath of cigarette smoke

fresh out of my lips

and I wonder if I even care about

what's "good" for me.

I'm not sure I do.

Or if I even know what good means.

Apparently something that isn't the way my body naturally is.

The pharmaceuticals claim to be better,

my doctor agrees.

Each pill comes with a side effect

and each diagnosis shapes my self image.

But I'm told it's good.

I guess that's the difference between feeling and doing.

How could I possibly do both?