You Are A Garden In A Universe Of Dead Things, Afraid Of Your Beauty

When did I learn it?

When did I forget?

Just being happy,

feels like a game of roulette.

No matter how hard,

no matter how easy.

You're gonna get hurt,

if you go through life pleasing.

You forget that you matter.

Deny that your worth it.

You allow yourself and others,

to treat you less than shit.

You explain it away,

make excuses to cover.

That when it starts to get hard,

you don't deserve love or -

protection.

You hide your true feelings,

you rarely say no.

When put to the challenge,

it's easier to let go.

So, you run - hide away,

you can care for yourself.

Because, all along -

you don't feel worthy of help.

Aren't you tired of this cycle?

I know, I've had enough.

I don't like being alone,

pretending I'm able and tough.

I want to be connected,

to trust somebody else.

I want someone to love me,

for just being myself.

A friend and a lover,

someone who feels like home.

I want to unlock my heart,

and stop being alone.

I know it's gonna take time,

wounds like mine, need to heal.

It's been a tough hill to climb,

I'm letting go of the wheel.

That control I took over,

to keep everyone out.

I am ready to start new,

show what I am all about.

And if you feel the same way,

please let go of the lies.

You are definitely worth it,

you have been the whole time.

Forgive yourself daily,

remember your value.

The way you've been feeling,

is so far from the real truth.

You are a treasure,

worth far more than gold.

And this is the affirmation,

you should always be told

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YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL

YOU ARE ENOUGH

YOU DESERVE TO BE HAPPY

YOU ARE WORTHY OF LOVE!

If you feel alone, or have struggled with self doubt, or self love. You are not alone. I hope this poem brings you comfort in knowing that there are better days coming. Don't give up. Don't be afraid to reach out for help. Loving yourself, and making your needs a priority, is the best gift you can give. You are a masterpiece!