You absolute idiot

Beginnings at a business training event we were both a part of

Many years ago, I couldn't let thoughts of you go

I tweaked your nose and you pulled a funny face

I loved your playfulness and your masculine grace

I was falling in love with your energy before we ever made physical contact

You were older, so much older, and you made so much impact

Tall, broad, self-deprecating

Never hating

You always tried to understand

To learn and to grow

We embarked on a spiritual and physical journey, we both found 'flow'

You blew my mind

And I blew yours

You told me I was your soulmate

We opened so many doors

You put a band on my finger

You put me through the ringer

Because you broke my heart, when you kept me at a distance

Ashamed of our age gap, you hid my existence

I would have proclaimed to the world, our love

But instead you drew back, gave the worst emotional shove

You treated me so badly, that I had to walk away

Then you accused me of breaking YOUR heart, what a thing to say

A decade later, you confessed that you believed

That I had been cheating, that I had deceived

This was not true, I had loved you so deeply

An intense connection, shattered so cheaply

You admitted you still loved me

And shattered my heart, which was reeking of abandon

When I asked why you hadn't spoken up at the time

You turned on your tail, and I never heard from you again

What an absolute waste, you then married someone you despise

We could have had a beautiful thing

But you blew it, because your head told lies.