Will I Ever Find Me?

3

‘Come find me. Play with me. I miss you.’

Her voice echoes around me as I wake in a field of daisies.

I squint from the sun and my eyes slowly adjust.

Her voice, a quiet whisper.

Then silence.

I slowly stand on my weakened legs.

How long was I out?

I look around in my confusion. Not knowing where I am.

Where I was…

Where do I even go?

The silence is calming.

I walk away from the sun…

It’s place in the sky suggests it’s morning…or afternoon.

Anywhere is better than not knowing here.

The silence is deafening.

My steps make no sound as I continue on through the endless field of daisies.

There is no end in sight. Nor is there a beginning.

To look back would be pointless. It’s all the same.

The silence is eerie.

Where am I?

I open my mouth to speak yet, nothing but silent breath escapes me.

I feel fear.

The silence is crushing.

The daisies go on for miles in every direction

And though I’ve been walking for ages…the sun never moves.

WHERE AM I?

I try to scream.

But there is silence.

I look down to inspect the flowers surrounding my ankles.

And I realize there is no scent in the air.

Those aren’t real daisies.

I feel my heartbeat quicken.

All I want to do is…

I’ve forgotten.

My shell has forgotten.

The person I am…

Is it really who I want to be?

Clouds form and cover the sun until there is nothing but darkness.

Fear and silence are my only companions.

And I find no comfort in them.