Why Would I Choose This?

Transitioning has shown me who people really are.

It has shown me how awful people are to people they don't know but are different from them.

It had shown me that in my own community there are people who want me dead and some who want me to move away to somewhere like New York.

I live in Florida and even though it is the southern most state, most don't see it as "the south."

I never knew that coming out of the trans closet would mean that I would have to deal with people saying things like, "until you have a real penis, you will never be a man."

I never in a million years thought to myself, " hey, you're going to just wake up trans tomorrow." But I have been told that I chose this.

Why would I choose this endless torment and bigoted rage from people who don't know me?

Why would I choose for people to argue with me whether or not I'm a burden?

Why would I pay hundreds of dollars trying to see my true self in the mirror because the insurance doesn't cover it?

I'm a female to male transgender and I don't believe I'm a burden.

I am special, and I am proud.