i do not know which one i hate more: that you robbed me or that i stood idly by. i gave you my heart; i created a home in you. i didn’t deserve what you gave me in return. you turned symbiosis into a swarm of parasites that gradually consumed me. you do not even care and it only took me until now. you have robbed me and i have come to claim myself, my energy, my magic. i want flowers in my hair and blood in my mouth; if you only take i will spit you out. you have tainted my skin and grasped my insecurities to pull like wool over my eyes so i could not find my way out. now that the light pools in my eyes like the tears i never cried, i am free to hate you. but i will not. you do not get my love, nor my hate, nor any space in my reality. i have given enough. enough of my soul that i sacrificed in words swallowed and unsaid. you stunted my growth by dampening my sunshine and i grew accustomed to inhabiting the small space you allocated for me. i do not hate you. i am too happy to care.
i’d wish you the best but the most i have within me is that i hope karma visits you one of these days. she’s a bitch - you’ll like her.
About the Creator
Sara
Don’t look for love.
Be love.
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Fair Exchange, No Robberies
Dark Memoirs - Index There are at least two kinds of people in the world: those who write this half-arsed kind of intro to a story that looks to separate the rare and the norm, and those who realise it's an overused framing device and don't.
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wow amazingly written, love this piece
I really enjoyed this. It’s very deep, candid, and complex.
Very powerful and intense.
Wow . Sarah who hurt you. This i so intense. I write stuff like this also. Maybe not as intense. This is very nice. Congrats on the top story.
This stream is clarity full of fluid. Excellent work, Sarah and congratulations!
Raw but so intentionally and expressively composed - congrats on a well-deserved Top Story! The concept of not wasting emotional energy on hating someone is a profound one, reflected on deeply here.
“…grasped my insecurities to pull like wool over my eyes…” This resonates with me. What a beautiful picture you’ve painted with pain. Congrats on the TS!
Such a poignant release of emotion! Congratulations, too, on the Top Story!
Visceral and powerful—amazing work!
This is fantastic. Well done and congrats on the TS.
What a viscerally furious reaction to trauma, abuse and pain. I really love it
Oh boom. Glad this got Top Story, congrats Sara! Hope it gets more eyes on this!
That image and that closing line are epic. Love the fact that you formatted the majority of the poem as one continuous stream, felt like a rant, speech type thing. Epic stuff, Sara!