Why Don't You Visit Me Anymore?

Dear Lindsay,

You haven't come to visit

me in a long time...

not in my dreams,

not when I'm awake.

Don't you know how much I still need you?

Maybe you think I'm doing fine

without you, your voice,

your smell.

But I'm not.

Sure, I've finally got my act together

as far as the financial situation goes.

Bet you thought you'd never see that

after you found all those unopened, unpaid bills stacked

on the top of the fridge all those years ago!

Ok, I'm not totally together with the finances,

but I'm close.

I'm sure you think I've moved on.

I mean, I don't spend as much time crying

as I did in the weeks after you died.

Not out loud.

I'm still crying on the inside.

I wish you'd come visit me in my dreams more often

so I could hear your voice,

your laugh, your smile.

Why don't you visit me anymore?

I still need you.

Love,

Danielle