Where I Went

I think I'm finally ready

To try to unscramble my head

It's impossible to explain in person

So I guess a poem will work instead

My head's a pretty fucked up place

Where all of my demons are free to roam

You strolled in at my darkest hour

And just made yourself at home

I knew from the beginning

Don't get me wrong

I knew where we were headed

Because you were singing a different song

I don't know what exactly it was

That made me so ready to risk it all

Just something about you

Made me want to take the fall

The thing that I forgot

Is even if you pretend there isn't a drop

That doesn't conceal the fact that

You're standing at the edge of the cliff top

Those couple weeks were spent

Dancing in circles at the edge

I think if I would have looked down

I'd of had warning before I toppled over the ledge

You knew that I was a risk taker

You knew that it was your choice

Maybe I could have swayed you

If I only had found my voice

It turns out I'm not so good with words

At least those not written in verse

Maybe that's why things

Somehow turned from bad to worse

You finally made your decision

And once again my silly heart shattered

Even after one thing had already lead to another

Not that it really mattered

So to answer your question of where I went

I was right where you wanted me to be

I backed off like you wanted

And you were finally free

That's what I thought you wanted

I wasn't expecting you to be upset

That I backed into the distance

And distinguished the two of us like a sunset

I may have been hurt

But I didn't really care

It was what you wanted after all

You didn't think we were the right pair

I don't blame you at all

For choosing to follow your head

Our hearts had something else in mind

But the mind won out instead

I'm sorry I let my heart get in the way

I've never had a friend quite like you

I'm sorry our friendship was tossed aside

Unable to be pulled back out of the blue

I guess all that's left to say

Is I wish we could go back to the way we were

I know I've been praying we could but

I don't even know what you would prefer

So in reality

I didn't really go anywhere

Please know I'm just a call away

Please know I still and will always care.