When will it end?

Sometimes I wonder,

I wonder why people still relate with me,

Talk to me,

Laugh with me,

Be there for me.

Why?

I've given you countless reasons not to,

I'm selfish,

Hardly ever there for you,

I hurt you,

And then come back to apologize,

And then I hurt you again,

Then apologize,

And hurt you again... and again... and again...

Oh when?!

When will I put an end to this cycle?

When...?

(sigh)

I try... and try to change,

To be better,

To be the one who makes you smile,

But how many second chances do I have left?

I see you take a step back,

Slowly start to keep your distance.

After all,

If I can't change,

When will it all come to an end?