Watering Whole

Darling,

You are leaking,

You are spilling out,

You are overflowing.

You let someone else fill you up.

They couldn’t read you.

They couldn’t gauge your space, your limits, your pace.

What they provided you with was never enough, or far too much.

You asked for more and more, then less and less.

You let someone else fill you up.

What they poured into you was not what you needed.

Even when it was what you asked for, begged for, ached for.

You are leaking,

You are spilling,

You are overflowing.

You are praying for water and they are giving you salt.

You let someone else fill you up.

Instead, you must fill yourself up.

Only you know your space,

Only you know your thirst.

Your dependence starves you,

Disarms you,

Disassociates you,

Makes an addict out of you.

Only you can fill yourself up,

So that even when you are leaking,

Spilling,

Overflowing.

You will still be sustained.

You will still be full.