Waiting for the heart

It was another cloudy and rainy day. I remember she told me that what she likes most is rainy days. On rainy days, you can take a book and lie on the sofa and read the book all day. On rainy days, you can just hang out in a daze. On rainy days, you can read with your loved one. A romantic Korean drama, you can cook with him on rainy days, and you can do many, many interesting things on rainy days. But then she said that she hated rainy days more and more, because rainy days made people sad and painful.

They met very early, but because of their shyness, no one spoke, but they all tacitly knew each other, and there was such a tacit understanding between them. When she was happiest, she was waiting for his message. One of his messages can make She was happy all day, even so excited that she couldn’t fall asleep all night. If she didn’t wait for his letter, she would lose her soul again. For ten years as a day, she waited like this every day, waiting for his reply to her, waiting For her, it is happy, because there is waiting, her tomorrow will come, because of waiting, she will not feel lonely, because of waiting, life becomes hopeful and suspenseful.

Ten years have passed, and great changes have taken place between them. He has become more and more busy, and sometimes it takes a long time to give her a message. She is still waiting without any complaints. She is like waiting for Yan'er to come home. Mother waited for him like this, just waited, waited, I don’t know how long he waited, but one day he disappeared. It was a rainy day, and the rain was very heavy. She came to his city by herself, and she tried every means to find it. He, but there was no clue. In this way, the wind blew her umbrella away in the crowd of busy traffic, the car cut her foot, and she fainted in isolation.

She never received a message from him again. She was a little flustered, a little hesitant. After so many years, he did not give her a promise, a word, never. But in this way, she still waited silly. Some people said that he was married, and some people said that he had gone abroad. She didn’t care about this, but still waited persistently. She thought of the beauty of their being together, and thought of it for him. Doing a lot of things that he doesn't know is enough. The happiest thing in life is waiting, and the most painful thing in life is waiting. Waiting is a kind of suffering, a kind of torture, especially waiting for a fruitless and meaningless person, it is the greatest torment.

In fact, I didn’t understand until today. I understand her perspective, her compassion and desolation. Maybe I grew up and started to have the ability to understand and empathize. I learned to let go of my hard shell and understand women who are very different from myself. , And empathize. After experiencing unruly teenagers and middle-aged ups and downs, she began to admit that there are too many imperfections in life.