~Vortex of Energy!~

April 3rd/2025!

~Vortex of Energy!~

My heart is crushed

My soul miss-aligned;

With these times!

I do not fit

I am a miss,

For all the years

Of wandering,

And pondering

With the words,

I have penned, to pages

In songs, poems, stories

And sonnets;

Year after year…

Over where you are,

My Dear!

Over where else I must travel,

To find rest, Peace and joy

In the arms of the right

Prince charming?

In the arms of my angel,

One who can sooth

My soul and resurrect,

My heart!

To a place

Where I wish to

And can live again.

But it gets harder and harder every day

As the lives of those I’ve known, so well;

People I was so familiar with

For so long,

All of them dying….

Yah know just leaving this life,

So quickly and far too young!

With new faces and ages

And ideologies on the horizon

People,

Strangers

From everywhere;

Culture and music

And other beliefs,

That are not of my time;

How does one live

In something to which

They do not relate?

I have no T.V.

And no Wifi

In my apt today,

I have to be careful

As to what I WILL WATCH,

Or listen too

To keep the nightmares,

And migraines away!

I can’t even turn on

The car radio,

Without being sick

Of all the American music,

I wasn’t even born there…

Where did the British and European

Music scene go?

Today’s new stuff

In styles,

That I just don’t understand!

Its noise, simply, that’s all;

There’s no grace, no pause, no poise,

When did people get

So uncomfortable,

With silence

And being alone with themselves?

And the old stuff, (‘the classics’)

As they say…

Well I hate to tell you all

But this is no longer,

1993!

And being on radio repeat reminder

Of just how much,

Everything has changed

Only brings it back

To the beginning,

Of that crushed heart

Over everyone and everything

Now Gone!

Those I’m missing

From a life and time

Passed,

For me:

And those

Now…

Only left in pictures

My words or memories!

I have given it a good fight

I did all the things I could do,

To find true love

With friends, family,

And a partner

In This Life;

Around that God & Jesus

That alone serving and being

Devoted to,

Is not enough

When born of

Flesh and blood,

When one has suffered

Abuse,

At the hands of others

In multiple ways:

It is important

So much more

Than Ever,

That Love is profoundly

Needed…

And must be found and given!

So to you my dear

Wherever you are,

I write these words

And do confess,

How much I long for you…

How much I am

Sorrowful,

For the lifetime of love

We’ve lived without having,

For not finding

Each other!

But maybe

Through my keeping

Things alive,

In keeping my heart beating

Writing my words of passion,

Then maybe…

Baby,

There may still be a chance

That love will happen,

Upon us both

And we do find,

One another ALIVE!

Still…

With some grace in time,

To Love

And be loved and yoked together?

So hears to hoping

My crushed heart heals,

And my Invisible tears

Nobody sees, nobody hears,

With all the emotion

OF what I’ve written,

Is felt

By you,

My dear…

And that Famous

Vortex of Energy,

Will yet

Still guide us,

Onto the right path

Where our 2 lives and souls;

Will,

Finally

Collide!

Written by,

Jennifer Cooley!

www.futureproductionsonline.com

www.youtube.com/iamjustjen