Useless Atonement

You blamed me for their mistakes

Every woman before me

They hurt you

They gaslit you

They manipulated you

They never showed you the love you deserved

I am sorry they did that to you

But I did not deserve to atone for their mistakes

I paid for my own

You hurt me

You gaslit me

You manipulated me

You never showed me the love I deserved

There were always more than just us in this marriage

The ghosts of lovers past

But I tried to heal you

Tried to hold you

Tried to show you love

But you were wounded

And chose to hurt me in their place

Although we are separated

We are bound together

I can let go of the hurt from the past

And leave the ghosts of the past forgotten

But what is left to haunt me

Is that I fought so hard to heal you

And you could not be bothered to fight to keep me