UNWANTED

Unwanted: I sit here wondering why wondering how, Think'n to myself what to do now, I’m so weak, so broke, no time to joke As I sit here and cry, all I want to do is die, Why am I still here, with all this fear, I here the words bully, whiny piece of crap heart broke, pain feels like a face slap, pull a word switch, it was meant to be bitch, that hurts the same, such a shame, I give and give, just want to live, a happy life, being your wife, Apparently that’s not meant to be, I’m sorry it’s not enough, me being me, I don’t call you names or put you down, would never choose to make you frown, Without my boys I have no meaning, Giving up is the way I’m leaning, oh how nice it would be, to be pain free. My chest stays tight, I cannot get air, going away is only fair, you’ll move on and soon be better, not a suicide note, not a love letter, I feel like I’m drowning in all this pain, no hope, nothing left to gain, wish I could wash the grief away like rain, I love you my boys and always will, Remember the good me as I stay still, No more pain, no more fight, left in me through the night, I’m sorry I hurt you and will make things right, I’ll go away, I’ll be out of your sight! 2016/copyright@DeepWaterPoetry