Toxic Love

Your joyous memories are gone now,

but the bad ones still remain.

A gut-wrenching reminder,

a time filled with constant pain.

Although not all moments were so bleak,

I wish I'd had more time to speak.

Perhaps for fear of appearing weak,

a healthy mind I did not seek.

But hushed, silent, mute, did I remain.

all that time filled with pain.

But what was I to do?

Raise my hand back up to you?

And what if I'd have seen it through,

give you reason, for what you do.

I guess then I'd have been to blame,

a reason for that lasting pain.

These old wounds might never close,

and so my heart might never open.

I close my eyes and look inside,

should I sleep, not to be woken?

Forfeiting thoughts engulf my brain,

is there no way to stop this pain?

I won't, hopefulness, I shall retain,

confident when spoken.

I will discover love I deserve,

my heart can be unbroken.

...

So on this earth I will remain,

hoping one day will heal this pain.