To the Woman I’m Becoming
Or to the want I want to become?
Hey you,
I've sat down so many times to pen this letter.
Time and time again.
Only to realise...
That I don't know who I'm becoming
I don't know who I want to become.
Geez, should I ChatGPT the answer to this?
Because I sure as h3|| cannot think anymore...
I ask myself what hopes do I have...
For the future...
To heal...
To love...
To balance...
But, nada.
They say 'honour your emotions'
But how do I do that when I don't have the time to sit and even absorb my own emotions?
The only one that gets out, runs away scot free, is my anger.
And then that's all people think of me.
That's all I think of myself.
HULK, SMASH!
They say think of 'renewed relationships' for coming days.
But how can I when I cannot overlook past and current ones?
When my entire time is stretched within all these things and more...
Okay, breathe.
Maybe there is something...
Some light, end of the tunnel and all that.
Maybe I'm becoming a woman who finally
Just goes with the flow.
But the flow of others.
Maybe I'm becoming a woman
Who makes time for herself
Time to stress eat to manage the emotions
(And maybe walk it off a few thousand steps later, yay!).
Maybe I'm becoming a woman
Who will never stop trying to
Fill little pockets of time with what she loves to do
For she has embraced that she is not for herself
But for others...
Yet, will continue to remind herself of ... well, herself
Even if others forget
So she doesn't feel ashamed of herself
When she looks in the mirror.
Maybe I'm becoming the woman
Who's just "okay" all the time.
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Happy Women's Day!
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Manisha Dhalani
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Wow, great job. I liked these lines - They say think of 'renewed relationships' for coming days. But how can I when I cannot overlook past and current ones? Do people use ChatGPt for such questions? wow. Congratulations on TS!! 🎉🥳
Your words reflect a deep struggle for balance. That’s strength.
I love how you wrote what's in your head. i procrastinate too much
If you become the woman who is ok all the time, you are ahead of the game. Nicely Done!!!
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Wooohooooo congratulations on your Leaderboard placement! 🎉💖🎊🎉💖🎊
You have written so much of what goes on in my head many days. Thanks for getting out in words for me!
It's so relatable. Thanks for sharing.
can anyone read my stories give me feedback?
thank u for sharing ur story...sometimes we need to write down what we feel,what we think,and we thought...its release and decrease our burden... hug from here
I relate hard. Thank you for sharing!
Back to say congratulations on your Top Story! 🎉💖🎊🎉💖🎊
Insightful, vulnerable, and reflective! Congratulations on the top story!
Well written, congrats 👏
Back to say congratulations on top story!!
This was beautiful, really good work!
This is amazing, Manisha. So full of emotion, and yes sometimes it's okay to just be okay. Congrats on the TS.
Happy Women's Day, Manisha! And yes, it's okay simply to be okay. Everyone should be okay with that.
Life is short. I'm not telling you this to waste it or to fight against it. Instead, change your perspective to appreciate the small joys it offers you. Every minute is precious when you spend it beautifully with yourself mindfully. Treat yourself to a coffee and love yourself in your solitude. That is what will remain.
Powerful, inspiring, and beautifully-penned!
I love this, Manisha. I've been thinking about this theme a lot in my personal life lately and this was just the poem I needed to stumble upon. There is so much power in just being "ok" sometimes. Thank you for writing this!
That was soooo profound and empowering! Loved it so much!