To All My Former Lovers

“I will strip you of your dignity

slowly”

They said so

constantly

wanting more

never stopped

same as the others

Why did I have to go through hell with each of them to find out

that I don’t want to be with anyone anymore?

Now every sound of them

evokes a blush of disgust

even if I believed in love, I wouldn’t want it

to follow this rough path to find out

at the end

that something is wrong

that my hair is too short or too long

that my words are too sweet or too bitter

that I exist in their eyes or not

because it doesn’t matter at all

They brought me inspiration

flair of fleeting frivolity

flounce and bounce in the rhythm

of transient feelings

once felt, but forgotten

never fully retrieved, although relived

every time

in a poem like this

written with pure satisfaction

that it’s over and it will never come back

this black shroud of lost tracks

on the way to another life

Is it still there after all?

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April – September 2022

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