Tiye's Heart

07.17.19

Today is the day I let you go .

When your soul calls out to me ,

On its knees with a plea ,

Understand that your phone ,

Is going straight to a dial tone .

Call Tyrone ,

Cause before the day I left ,

You didn’t have to call ,

I was always there

To usher you on time

Away from another downfall ,

With my all like Ashanti —

Honeybee like Beyoncé and you my lady Gaga —no shady , but all I’m saying is I had you slim .

I know you’re a guy , didn’t have to try but you made my song cry so I hope you get the references .

I know now what I knew then ,

that I didn’t have any of yah preferences .

But I still woulda given you my limb —

made you a sim ,

played god when times got grim

Cause I wanted to manifest your happily ever after so bad —

rode myself to the rim —

soul on flat and you’re the brat

with the gat

in the back

giving me a heart attack —

cause I can’t call for help

without hurting you .

But I was still there to see things through .

I was right there for your despair ,

—there to share everything I had anywhere you’d go —there through the affair , thought I was unaware but I heard you .

Slept through the venomous curses you spewed in the air —there to help you become a man even though you acted like a coddled child in daycare —I was the true answer to your prayer . I was there .

Right there in your mental prison with you to shank my soul outta place .

I was a disgrace !

Letting my heart race ,

Accepting second —third —fucking last place like I wasn’t the ONE working hard everyday ,

Not for me but to put a smile on your face ?

That smug handsome face that stared—

No glared at mine —

As if I was the one that destroyed your mental shrine .

Even the Bible says don’t cast pearls Among swine .

So my chakras musta been outta line ,

For me to accept your wrongs as a sign for me to turn right into the dark —and not left into the light cause like you said , when you go right shit goes wrong .

So I should have left your ass in DC on U Street where you belong —like you did me so long ago .

But no .

No , I stayed cause I wanted to be there .

Stayed cause I care

—stayed cause I watched your friends and family swear they love you ,

But laughed as they guided you right to your nightmare to take everything you had —you had better beware , beware , beware of a woman with a broken heart .

To this day I don’t understand how i even compare

to the women who hurt you when I was the one there

to hold your hand through their attempts to scare you ,

There even though you were unfair ,

Cause I was unfair too .

I shared my truths on how I came to be me and you made me to be a monster —you saw their demons in me when I was the one to finally break the curse of their misery .

I remember you even took back my favorite footwear you gave ,

I swear !

You were so unfair .

Too much Aquarian energy cause we were fixed in the air —

Effective communication became rare

So we couldn’t repair

The damages from our warfare.

I thought I was your angel and you made me a demon from your nightmare .

You dreamt versions of me that didn’t exist .

Spirit tryna shed light on the childhood you try to dismiss ,

Distracted yourself by conjuring spells to see the worst in me .

You wanted me to contort into something only pictures can depict —

Wanted me to always give my all,

while you gave nothing —

Wanted me to sit in the dark and cry ,

While you took all I worked hard for to get high .

I was just a slave to you —

I changed my name for you —

Took all the blame for you ,

And you never said thank you .

Cause in your mind I owed you ,

For mistakes I made before you —

For your unfulfilled wishes of your own—

You blamed me for your inability to cope with your past , your instability , and your unwillingness to pursue whatever it is inside of you ,

And I let you .

Oh my fucking God , I let you change me .

No I changed myself for you but the broken contorted distorted me was never enough ,

And never would be because it took the real me to change you .

Shit , it took the real me to change me .

To shake you into a real boy since you wanna play Pinocchio—the lies you told ,

You can hold with yah wood ,

Cause I’m free .

Even though you know everything there is to know about me ,

I have to let you and our past be , so

Like Jesus I forgive thee ,

Cause you know not what you do .

But you’ll wait on my return till I’m ready .

I understand I can’t save who doesn’t want to be saved ,

So I’m ready to save me .

I know you’ve been meditating on my energy

Cause I can feel you , but it’s time to let go .

You became the enemy I had to keep the closest

Cause you had my heart when you parted my sea like Moses .

Made me lose focus on who I wanted to be .

Chained me to the bottom of the ocean with your Scorpio moon

And left me there to drown .

As above so below

So I was never meant to stay down .

Our Aquarian’s stars got crossed in tarot

Our souls got lost

Like booze in jack sparrow,

I got shot by Cupid’s arrow ,

Dangling on his line

A fresh fish outta water .

Came to earth to be batized in fire ,

I plan on going higher than you ever imagined .

I plan on channeling the Phoenix in me to go to war for my desires —

So don’t get caught in the crossfire .

Whatever idea you had of reaching out will backfire ,

I promise yah gun will misfire

And I care too much to let you keep rotting in hellfire ;

So please know that I forgive you .

Please know that my heart is mine not for you to hold on to .

Open yourself to new love cause my soul has left you .

Remember the things I’ve taught you ,

Cause I’ll remember your lessons too .

We are all here to learn after all ,

So treat your next wife with the respect she deserves and you’ll always get that back and more .

Beware , beware , beware of the woman ready to love you , cause she’ll always be there .

Unless you break her heart , then she’ll be the nightmare to haunt you .

The voice in your head to taunt you .

So get it right ,

Get it tight ,

Cause you about to find ms new booty .

Show her you love her everyday it’s your duty .

I have faith in you .

So This is not goodbye ,

We’re soulmates after all .

One day I’ll give you a call and

I hope to hear you give love another try .

Cause sometimes we fall down a few times before we fly .

Sincerely my own

TyPie2High