Through His Eyes

the very first time I opened my eyes

I saw their image; I did not know why

there were people standing all around

I had a strange feeling as they passed me around

then suddenly, I began to cry

then I felt the warmth and strength

of his body next to mine

as he cradled me,

I gazed into his eyes

this man loved me; I felt it deep inside

I heard his voice as he spoke to his wife

they talked about me most of the night

I was their first son, a junior to be

they had already pictured me grown

and the man I would be

then the man looked at his wife,

said, "I LOVE YOU,"

and kissed her goodnight

he looked at me with a tear in his eye

I once again felt his love deep inside

I don't know why it happened

but it changed their lives

a lung infection,

that might claim my life

they told my mom it broke her heart

she felt all alone and cried most of the night

she called my dad

he awoke with a start

he answered the phone,

and those exact words crushed his heart

they wept together for my life

they did not understand

what happened that night

I thought about my sisters

that I would never see

they will never get to play with, hold or kiss me

they will never dress me up or get a chance to see me spit-up

we will never feel each other's touch

we will never see each other grow up

most of my thoughts are with my mom

there is a special closeness

a secret bond

from the very beginning, she carried and cared for me

deep within her body, she gave life to me

then as I began to grow

I pushed her insides to places they should not go

I made her uncomfortable for a long time

but she shared her life with mine

I became delighted and excited you see

because pretty soon I would get to know this woman who loved me, "MY MOMMY," and she would get to see me

as the time grew near

I began to fear

about the birth and her sacrifice so dear

after my birth;

the days went by; it seemed like years

they stuck, poked, and operated on me

but you made me feel good

because you always beside me stood

I remember the day, that afternoon

my dad said, "unhook him,

take out the needles and tubes"

I was very excited, as odd as it may seem

I just wanted you to hold me

to feel your touch

your warmth, your skin

an share that closeness all over again

Mom,

"I Love You," "I will miss you"

but,

"I will always be with you"

my dad held me close to his chest

as we sat in that room waiting for my death

he looked at me with tears in his eyes

I could feel his love deep inside

I would be leaving pretty soon

I could feel my dad's love consuming the room

I wish I could have told him

"Dad, I Love You"

my body trembled all over

as I drew my last breath

you stayed there

and held me after my death

Mom and Dad,

"I Love You," "You did your best"