Therapy

i yell i need help, but never actually go to get it

deep down, i am scared to admit

that it stems from denial

now i am in a never ending cycle, of begging for survival

maybe i need some deep therapy

but honestly, who would want to listen to me?

i carry a fear of being judged

to be rejected and unloved

i want to open up what i closed

unlock and feel exposed

so sick of feeling numb

a new person to become

but the cycle continues to repeat

me and my mind constantly compete

i am forever the loser

a slave to my abuser

under her command

is that something a therapist could understand?