The Worth and the Worthless

Poems of tenebrae

#1

i was not upset because

i believed I deserved better

i only realized

i never did

#2

I am sorry

I was not there when

you needed me

i didn’t know that

anyone could

#3

the cure,

apparently,

need to

fix myself

is a smile and a few

lifestyle changes

#4

i am so sorry

I try harder at

nothing else but to be

happy for you

but all I see in you is

what I could be

but never will be

#5

How I could believe

I was worth anything

I don’t know

I guess

you were right

Poems of anima

#1

You look just like your mother

they tell me

I know

I smile,

praying that

the rest of the apple fell

far, far

from that tree

#2

I was

content

to allow my

demons to own me

to allow my suffering to

consume me to allow my

sickness to define me

and then the pen

collided with the

paper and I

realized

I could

win

#3

I kept losing you

until with

aching fingers

and bloody hands

I let go

not because I hated you

Because I loved myself

#4

I don’t know

if I write because

I hate myself or

I love myself.

To heal myself or

to prove myself.

#5

I have been so lost

lost within my head

lost within my heart

overrun by my feelings one moment

devoid of them the next

surrounded

and still alone

I have been so found

in control of my feelings

strengthened by them

surrounded

by love

#6

I am a lover

and a fighter

Poems of amor

#1

I wake up

My hand

is soft against yours

My skin

hot against yours

My lips

gently against yours

My body

against yours

I wake up

again

#2

Together we could be

beautiful

so high that not even the

sun

could stop us not even the

moon

could find us not even the

stars

could touch us

#3

Love is not

to become unbreakable

Love is

to no longer be

afraid to break

#4

you cannot love another until you love yourself

is wrong

I don’t know if

that will happen

But for now

you cannot tell me

That the moment I wish that I was not here

I am not allowed to love you either

#5

I am

exceptionally

unlovable

#6

you put a hole

in my head first and then

my heart

#7

i think the

idea of you

is what

I am in love

with