The Worst Day of My Life

Did you hear it?

Did you hear my soul shatter on the day you fell?

It was only as loud as a bomb

Damn near destroyed me too (it did)

Was it really boredom or was it a cry for help?

Your body was there, but you weren't

Speaking in tongues, no less

A familiar stranger

It's so hard to breathe when the cold hand of fear grips you by the throat

I never left your side

I remember my stomach hurt so bad

And I was so cold

And I couldn't even cry

Not for awhile

Not even when you punched me

Not until you were immobile

Not until they forced you out of your self imposed hell into nothingness (thank God)

Are you ok?

I wish you would let me back in, let me help

We used to be inseparable

I don't know who you are anymore

I'm so scared (terrified) to wake up one day and find you gone

You don't value your life as I do

You are ESSENTIAL!

As necessary as the blood that courses through my veins

God (there is no God) what I wouldn't do to see you smile at me again

And reach out to me for anything

There is a constant ache in my heart

But it will keep beating as long as you are here

Please don't destroy us both

Please....

I'm begging you

PLEASE....

(I need you)