The Villain

I don't want you to say you're sorry

We all know it isn't true

I'd much rather turn the tables

and watch it all happen to you

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I want you to feel all of it

Every feeling. Every word you ever said

I want it to haunt you in your nightmares

I want it stuck inside your head

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I want you to drown in the guilt

Be the one to hold you under

I want you to know that it was me

Make it clear. Nothing left to wonder.

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I don't want to show you any mercy

The same courtesy you gave to me

The pain and suffering you caused

Has finally set a villain free

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Oh, this isn't what you wanted?

Why am I so full of hate?

Remember, when I begged for you to listen?

Now you're mad that it's too late?

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I'm tired of being nice

Soft-spoken, sweet, and gentle

Every ounce of pain you caused...

You were deliberately detrimental

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I've swallowed my anger like poison

While you took away my voice

Never wanted it to be this way

but you've left me with no choice.

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I'm tired of being silent

when I just want to scream

I've been trapped inside a nightmare

while you all got to live a dream

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I want you to feel the guilt

I want you to suffocate in it

I want you to choke on every word

Frankly, I want you to eat shit

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Asphyxiate on the shame you avoided

The anger, the sadness, the pain

I want you to carry all of it

without an umbrella in the rain

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I want you to carry it on your back

Let the heaviness weigh you down

I want you to be laughed at

since you love to act like a fucking clown

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You don't get to apologize

For things you should have never done

You don't deserve my forgiveness

just because the games no longer fun

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And it this makes me a monster...

I'll happily wear the fangs.

Put my picture on the wall with a title

and admire it where it hangs

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If turning ugly makes me seen

What a perfect monster I will be

This is the beast that you created

Oh wait... now you're scared of me?

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You no longer deserve my kindness

It was wasted on all of you

Your approval is no longer needed

Those words have never been more true.

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I will no longer be gentle

for the sake of people who want to see me break

I would rather be the monster

Than the hypocrite. The liar. The fake.

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Oh, wait... you were just playing?

Oh, it was just a joke?

Well I could not care any less.

I hope you fucking choke.