the never ending story: Part 1

On the inside it hurts on the outside it sometimes show

it hurts when people tell me the i'll never have nowhere to go

that I will never be nothing I could never follow my dreams

that i'm not the right size or weight, and they gave up on me that's what it seems

will anybody ever care I just don't know anymore

I just don't wanna keep pretending to be somebody i'm not

I mean I wanna be myself because right now i'm all I got

can somebody just stop and listen to what i have to say

or will i have to keep holding in in pain until i do something to something unforgivable to make it all go away

i dont know, maybe i should just be seen and not heard

people hurt me just because i won't say a word I sometimes sleep and smoke to get rid of the pain

but it's always always still there on my mind i will never feel the same

maybe i wanna i wasn't meant to be happy

my whole life's been trauma but that's just me

maybe i wasn't to be heard

or maybe, just maybe, this is just the beginning of making me into a strong balck queen who has the best ending.....

to be continued.