The nature of my life

The name of dysfunction reeks in my DNA

Almost like an asteroid that’s left a mark on my planet but even after decades there’s still something catastrophically beautiful about it,

The acknowledgment of growth beneath the soil, the damage that’s caused,

The roots planted to endeavour my understanding of me,

Growing into a tree filled with life and wisdom but the branches break as the wind drifts me away into another depth i am yet to awaken,

Sobriety is calling me and only when i bled on those that fed me was i able to see,

How could that be?

How selfish of me,

The spiral I am moving in is an ascension to me but at the cost of hurting other beings,

Unintentionally causing damage like a tornado caught in my wind of emotions,

The logic begins to kick in and here I am fixing parts of me,

Is this what we call growth?

From an asteroid that caused damage?

I didn’t even ask for these things but here i am building a new me and maybe that’s what life’s ment to be,

How could you blame me?

Human nature is far more complex then I imagined me to be,

An awakened soul constantly awakening,

Until I form cherry blossoms of lessons,

And as they fall so do I but that’s just the seasons,

Just like autumn and spring there’s always shedding and growing,

Both are beautiful just as I am,

Nature is me and that’s beautiful to me,

This earth and the nature of it are inspirational beings,

because I choose to see and that’s what keeps me moving

I am not my trauma I’m natures human being <3