The Most Loved & Unloved

In the paradox of existence, love and loneliness intertwine,

Might the most loved and unloved ever win?

A primal hunger for connection stirs deep within,

As I wonder if my quest for love will end in victory or a never-ending spin.

Do I possess the ability to recognize love's true face,

Or will I push it away, lost in a never-ending maze?

The taste of love is fleeting, an indescribable tease,

Leaving traces on my lips and stirring emotions with such ease.

But lurking in the shadows are fears of disappointment and pain,

False hopes and intangible bonds leaving me constantly strained.

Is there truly someone out there meant for me?

Doubts cloud my journey, hindering what could potentially be.

Are my positive affirmations merely a facade,

A way to cope with solitude, a disguise for what's inherently flawed?

I remind myself to embrace my own light,

To find peace in solitude, yet crave connection's might.

A yearning whispers within, like a song's soft hum,

Longing for a bond, deep and tender, like a beating drum.

Why is showing love deemed a weakness, even considered a sin?

Should love be fought for and conquered through sheer will,

Or is it something that simply fulfills?

I long for a connection lost in time's embrace,

A love so profound, it leaves its mark on every trace.

In my dreams, I have found the deepest love known to man,

A love so pure and all-consuming, it feels like coming home again.

Losing you was like losing a vital part of me,

Your absence is like an endless void, drowning me in agony.

If I could trade anything for just one more moment with you,

To feel your love once again and know it's true.

I search for you in every face that I see,

Hoping one day you'll return to me.

But until then, I must live with a love so bittersweet,

A love that consumes me, but still feels incomplete.

In my solitude, I am adored by many,

But the love I truly desire remains elusive and uncanny.

They admire my passion, my creative fire,

But their love is fleeting, fueled only by temporary desire.

Just as quickly as love comes, it fades away,

Leaving me alone to face yet another day.

I call out to my dreamy lover across time and space,

Hoping to find you at last and finally embrace.

How many lives have we lived worlds apart,

Is this desolate giver ever destined to have a matching counterpart?

Am I meant to carry this torch so others may see,

Or is my story etched into the stars for all eternity? Am I destined to start the torches so others may know?

Is my story written to sit etched in the stars?

Shall I wait among the vastness of the night sky to light the way for others?

Is it my forsaken path to only know, when my brilliant light fades to my demise?

Is then I will find? Might I come in a blazing shooting star to land just where you are?

Will you say dammit, it took you long enough?

My love is this our reunion? The rawness of our naked bared souls, where do you begin and I end?

Yearning for something that was never mine.

Did you resemble a lover of a lost time?

Sparking the connection I crave lit my desires on fire.

Longing for the forgotten, a disheartening departure.

The most I've ever been in- love was in a dream.

Beautifully potent Intoxicating, love felt to the depths of my being.

Intertwined magically beating as one a contentment I have never known.

Losing you in what felt like a lifetime left me drowning in asphyxiation.

Clinging to you a pleading desperately as you fade into just a memory.

The emptiness of your absence invaded me, stealing a piece of my soul.

Purest exhibit of love met with tragedy of you being torn from me.

Years later I can still hear and feel my cries for you not to leave.

To know your love and the tormented feeling of your absence.

To this day I know what real love should feel like.

That is my measurement. I would trade my everlasting breath to find you again.

So to say I've never been in love would be a lie.

For it flows through my essence of being.

Tangible by my touch, seen in expression of my passionate ways.

Ironically the most loved and unloved exist as one.

Sorrow that swells internally within weeps in discrete.

Might I find you in tangible flesh, where the unity of our hearts beat?

Longing for an unknown figure feels like such a defeat.

Shall this curse of our love only find balance in different realms?

Where can I find you hidden beneath the veils.

In the depths of my being, a void lies,

A chasm where my essence cries.

Broken, shattered, torn apart,

A soul adrift, a wounded heart.

Deserving more than this inner strife,

Yet trapped within this tumultuous life.

My mind, a maze of tangled thought,

A battleground where demons fought.

Rage, grief, guilt, abundance of love where they intertwine,

Fueling the fire that within me shines.

I long to break free from this crimson haze,

To find peace in these chaotic days.

But how do I quell this burning ire,

And reclaim the vision of my heart's desire?

I search for answers, a path to heal,

To mend the wounds that I conceal.

To fill this void, this empty space,

And find solace in a calmer place.

May clarity come like a soothing rain,

Washing away the anguish and pain.

May I find the strength to let go,

And embrace the peace that I long to know.

A love story waiting to unfold where all the glory will be bestowed.

Until then, my energy extends to magnify yours even if we meet at the world's end, and my love, that's where we will begin.