the future is far ahead

You will never hear my secret whispering through your ear

You will may never see me in the way I do

The secret lays there in the midst of the darkness in my mind

As a little girl playing tea party

I was told I could be anything I wanted to be when I grew up

I used to dream of being a princess

Until my tiara was smashed to pieces

Now look at me

I left my tiara in the dust

My prince charming never came for me

There was no one in the world to share my ideas with

who would understand

So shy

so scared

the wind whispers on a cold winter night to me

Ripped up little girl dreams scatter across the icy roads

Tears so cold they freeze

before they drop

The world is screaming at me to

give up and give in

But I won’t

I couldn’t even think of giving up

Even when the winds are so cold

they make feel so brittle

I won’t give up

My future is there

No one can tell me that the winter nights

are warmer than

any failure I may ever retrieve

My numb fingers close tightly around my dreams

My gloves lost somewhere behind

But I dare not look behind but ahead

This is my life I will scream out

You won’t tell me

No

I will be who I want to be

Everyone has a war in their minds

But the most deadliest one of all

Is when

your mind can’t decide who you are

My fight is worst

I hear them crying horrible names out to me

I know I shouldn’t cry

But I’m only human

So I will cry

Not because they hurt me

Because they made me think I’m nothing less and nothing more

My future's so far ahead of me

I know this because

I know what I want

I know who I am

I know I have fought many wars And I will fight many more

Just get where I want to go I won’t let this keep me back.

Today I am smiling but tomorrow

I will be crying

a New war will start tomorrow at the drop of a pin

It is my choice to fight it or run from it

I know both choices would be better

than giving into it

Tomorrow I will cry myself to sleep

But when I wake I will laugh and smile all the way

I Will show no fear of this dangerous war

My future is my choice

I will be who I want to be

you will see just you wait

Look past my smile

Look past my laugh

You will see me the warrior

Who's future is far ahead of her