The day I lost my...

The day I lost my virginity...

Wait no, sorry about that.

That’s the title of another tragedy.

Let’s try this again.

The day I died from an overdose.

Now we’re on the right track.

I know what you’re thinking... crack. 🙄

No, I promise it’s not that.

In fact, I’ve always been against drugs.

The irony, I know.

I went from alcohol, to weed, to molly to blow.

It was never my intention I swear.

Nor did I do it on a dare.

I can’t tell you exactly why.

No matter how hard I try.

I can tell you it’s because I was going through a hard time.

Although that might be true.

If you knew me, you’d say “nah, that isn’t you”

That isn’t an explanation,

But let me get back to the situation.

It was a warm summer day.

Wait. It could have been in may...

or sometime in the winter.

No, no, no. I remember now.

It was a breezy, yet warm night in October.

I got to this house party with my girl.

It wasn’t a diverse crowd,

I was the only brown skinned girl with the tight curls.

We got in and the host had a crush on me.

So of course, he kept feeding me and feeding me shots.

Damn I had a lot.

He even made me a special drink.

It was a daiquiri I think.

Anyways back to the night.

It started with me losing my sight.

Wait no back track.

He took me to the back.

You can imagine that I’m super smashed.

He offered me some molly.

I took it.

Mixed it in my drink, then booked it.

Back to the party.

20 mins later it didn’t kick in.

So I went back for some more again and again.

I wasn’t in the right state of mind I admit.

But everyone knows not to listen to the drunk girl, shit.

I don’t remember sniffing the coke.

I just don’t.

But I remember I couldn’t feel my body anymore.

Everything started going black,

And boom. I hit the floor.

I remember the feeling of my eyes rolling back.

It felt like I was having a heart attack.

I heard my girl screaming behind my shoulder.

She touched my arm, it couldn’t have been colder.

I heard her screaming and crying,

“What did you give her, what did you give her?!”

I tried to speak, but my body wasn’t cooperating.

My soul was leaving my body, I felt myself shivering.

Nothing but darkness. I was scared.

This is exactly everything I feared.

They tried to move me to the couch,

I fell.

Is this hell?

My heart stopped beating for two minutes,

Before I gasped for air.

I had to stay, I have a kid here.

I fought for my life that day.

Because of my kid I stayed.

It was the scariest night of my life.

Since that day I realized to take time because we don’t live twice.