The Dark You Created

The loneliness sets in like the night with no moon

Dark, cold, emptiness consumes every part of me

Restless night, tears shed onto my pillow, sleeping till noon

All signs that I am sinking back into a place no one wants to be

Trying to declutter my thoughts as I declutter rooms

Staring at the dust covered things that once brought me joy

I tuck them away where I cannot see

Finding comfort and relief in the mess spread upon my floor

I don't want to be like this anymore

Trying so hard to climb out of this low

Begging for your affection that you refuse to show

Keeping myself busy with things I asked you to help me do

Chores not meant for one person but you're always on the go

I can't blame this depression on you I know

This is the path I choose so I must walk it alone

I shouldn't complain of the loneliness and sadness I feel

Afterall, you say that it's no big deal

I'm overreacting, overthinking and irrational

My feelings you say are only intangible

But I push through the pain, the heartache and fear

Because if I do it myself without you here

You'll come home to a clean house, a hot meal, and a beer

I don't want to be a burden to you like my depression is for me

Sometimes I wonder if you would rather be free

If you have one foot out the door just looking for a reason to leave

I'm sure there's somewhere else you'd rather be