The broken cries

The water ripples as I sit on this bench and watch. The city lights reflect on the water as I sit here with my thoughts out of order.

But oh the ripples oh so peaceful and calm I wonder why the hell did I drop this bomb?

A month passed I feel sick. I wish we can just lay here with our hands holding each other and staring into each other’s eyes. I miss you love as my cries are silent.

Tears drip down my face as I sit here silently. Nothing but the car noises and the people walking on the dock….. I wonder do you feel what I’m feeling? I miss you love and nothing can take that away. Like a knife in the chest I sit here next to the water. Hoping it’s you! You can be my kids father. The future is unknown but I only want a future with you and no other. I miss you my love I want you back. I am working on myself doing things in the right track. Hear my cries hear me out the dreams I have are taunting me. When I wish I could feel safe with you cuddling up to me.

Staying busy is what your doing but I’m trying to work on me but a break up in the process is destroying me. Love come back tell me it will be okay. But instead I’m shaking like a leaf here on this cold winter night.

The future is unknown but inside I feel torn. I wish that I was never here to be born.

Ugh I can’t take this pain anymore. Please god stop me from being to sore……