Tasteless

I cannot fathom why I am frightened to go outside. I showed someone off for about a year and turns out they were not right for me in any capacity. It hurt a lot as I grew more. I want to be able to tell my story rather than hide it and its really hard when I fear going out of my comfort zone. I get in these slumps where I just feel down low and I don't know if that is because I am a 20 year old hormonal girl or because I just am sad. I supported them so much when they just rooted me on, and if you didn't know there is a difference. A big difference. I crafted things for him while they just read my stuff in awe saying I can keep on going - it didn't really matter because I knew I could keep going on without them. I love myself more than I could stay in that relationship.

When they rub their lips against mine its more tasteless than a cashew

the aroma they emit spikes fear in me, just enough to be up rooted from my home

Why do I fall for the scares

The ones who make my stomach churn

The ones that make my butterflies feel more fear than love