Taking a Selfie

I went to an event alone today,

Which seems to be my newly formed reality,

There's nothing wrong with it,

I am kind of used to it,

But I wish I found a place where I fit,

My friends that are locked in by history,

No longer have the same interests as me,

I still love them dearly,

But they do not want to experience the same world I see,

I took a selfie with some pride flags today,

To commemorate,

That I was there,

But to compare,

Taking a selfie in the city that is my home,

It makes me feel all that more alone,

I solo traveled the world recently,

Being alone feels like a part of me,

Although taking a selfie over there,

Felt like a privilege I wanted to share,

I also had times of being lonely,

But I was never short on what to see,

And I was never somewhere long enough to feel that empty,

Walking back to my car I passed a house today,

Where I could hear a family play,

Their competitive triumphs filled their driveway,

I found myself almost knocking on their door, asking to stay,

But instead, I walked away,

I know this is the place I want to be my home,

I love the life I am building out here on my own,

But I deeply crave the community of being understood and known,

Because without it, I find myself doing everything alone.