tail lights

I miss the stories you told

the way your eyes would glow

when you made someone laugh.

Its all you really ever wanted.

But here I am.

Im not laughing anymore.

I would laugh until my core ached,

until my mouth hurt,

which wasn’t hard because I hadn’t smiled like that in what felt like a lifetime.

A genuine happiness leapt out of me that hadn’t been there in so long.

A childlike joy

which came with an elementary naivety.

Now I look back at how dumb I was

how could I have been so stupid to let myself feel like that again

when I already knew how fast it could be taken away

with the slamming of doors

and departing car lights that wont be turning around any time soon.

Left dateless to the daddy daughter dance

And now the prom

But some of it still lingers

as I still have a little place in me

that thinks you just might turn around.