sunshine yellow

you said I remind you of the sun

the shiniest star, always full of laughter

exuded radiance and sometimes burned too brightly

but you saw through the fire, saw me for me

I was drawn to you as much as you were drawn to me

your blue eyes sparked when they met mine

you knew how to strike my match, and I lit up around you

it felt like neon electric, wild, and passionate

you made me feel seen, my solar plexus wide open

you let the warmth in enough to shine a light on my deepest wounds

my childhood traumas resurfaced and began to swallow me whole

abused as a child and left alone to hurt

no one had ever loved me before

the pain from my past was too much to bear

my tears were ugly and my smile was gone

I questioned my entire reality

and just like we do the sun, you took me for granted

forgot how infectious my smile used to be

you only wanted my sunshine yellow

you did not love my pale moonlight

two twin flames on an impossible journey

then you abandoned me

you broke me, shattered my heart

I spent my days in the dark

and my nights in the light

illuminating my wounds until they didn't hurt anymore

healing and loving myself

Sola

now I glow bright from the inside out

again now and more than ever

sunshine yellow like I am El Sol itself

I no longer shine for you

our day has come to an end

I will rise for a new world tomorrow

one that is eager for my arrival