Sunless

Raspberry dark chocolate

Heavy and sweet, effervescent freshness

Getting high on coffee, low on wine

Bipolar colors

Dried flowers that delight and scatter when the wind blows

I paint with abandon and desperation

I judge everything and then surrender to a higher power

Then the next day, I do it all over again

My inner child and I, rebuilding trust--

I'm sorry they hurt you, but you're safe now

At least sometimes...

It's true, old motherly reverberations still paint our walls

Measuring and remeasuring the temperature in the room

Hot, cold, sweltering, freezing, tepid, numb.

Nowadays, it's mostly overcast with apathy

Dust on my vision board; the colors lost their luster

Whose dreams were those? I don't recognize her from only three months ago

Heart unyielding and chilled like marble

And so much darkness that it could swallow me whole and I still wouldn't feel a thing

My pink sweater is trying so hard to pull me out

There must have been a time when I decided to give up.

Like a drunken sleuth, I sluggishly try to retrace that moment

In the hope that I can reverse the spell

I won't need any charms, crystals, or black cats.

A warm hug and an "I forgive myself" will do just fine.

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Thank you for reading! I haven't written poems in a long time, but I feel them coming back to me. If you liked this one, your claps and comments will make me so happy 💜

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