Stuck

I am stuck…..

My brain is beaten black and blue lost in every thought, can’t stop my mind from pacing.

My body stripped of every movement, but can’t keep my heart from racing.

All this fear inside…… I can’t seem to taim it. Trying to find the right words not knowing how to explain it.

What is my purpose in this world? I am the “angry” one that’s what I’m always told.

Being misunderstood had anger running through my veins.

Asking myself what love do I have to share if there’s nothing of me that remains.

I really am stuck…

Stuck in a loop that has no ending. Kept trying to fake it till I make it, but I can’t keep on pretending.

While “Help Me” is at the tip of my tongue, but stuck on pending.

Is this generational trauma?

Where I can not breathe or is it a visit from Karma?

As if pain is all that I know and only thing I can construct.

Praying for better days, but I fear I ran out of luck.

So, yes! I’m stuck in a time that never moves.

A never ending cycle of really bad news.