Sleepless

Every night is another challenge to get to sleep on time.

I need to be awake early, and get the day started at sunrise.

But every night, my thoughts are so loud and they always keep me awake!

It's so frustrating and so difficult to make for a good payday.

The meds I take scripted from the doctor, my body, eventually becomes immune, and they make sleep feel farther and farther away.

Insomnia is not a joke. Anyone who thinks it isn't real can believe what they want. It is very real and it is very unpleasant!

No one likes the emptiness, that fog in the brain, nor that feeling of sludge when one's body hasn't received the decent amount of zzzz's.

No one cares if you have a medical reason or a reason of the mental health type. They will never understand and that's quite alright.

The husband that used to be, could find anywhere to sleep and never understood me and my lack of abilities.

Then again, his ears weren't trained from the crying babies at night.

You know the sounds that usually mothers become trained to hear when their baby is in need, or just to have the ears attuned to any strange sound that awakens one's sense of fear and ready to take action.

Now that life is different and our babies are grown adults, my sleeplessness is still very prevalent and I am very much alone with my thoughts.

So if you are lucky enough to have the talent to fall asleep on cue...

Well, big f-ing deal! Good for YOU!