Skin Deep

I am neither black nor white

Too light to fit here

Too dark to belong there

Not white enough

Not dark enough

Never enough...

What are you? Where are you from? Your skin.. it looks different?

Never enough...

Defined by the identity that I am not

Told what identity I am

Regardless of if I agree

Never fitting to either side perfectly

Wanting desperately to color match

To be enough for one side

Choosing one side over the other

Hating one side for opressing the other

Only to be opressed both times over

Not white enough, not "pure" enough, not "clean" enough

Not brown enough, not dark enough, not Queen enough

I am defined by what I am not

My color lacking in either direction

My red blood, heart blood not red enough, not "pure" enough

Never enough...

To whom? Not to myself... Not anymore...

My color encompasses both blackness and whiteness

I will not limit myself to choosing one side or the other

I am all of the above

Perfect, Whole and Complete

I am not defined by a social construct that tries to categorize me neathly into one color category

I am not a paint swatch within the confines of a box

I am double the color

The full color spectrum

Limitless, boundless, free of judgement

Free of a super imposed identity crisis that I choose not

Not Black

Not white

But exactly just that

Both black and white

Perfectly whole and complete

I fit

I belong

I color match

I am enough