Silence gives way

Who hears the silence? Who feels my pain or fears? Can you see me crying? Do you know my heart? Am I in your thoughts? will you feel sad when I'm gone? will you cry too? Why do you stay away? Am I not worth your time? You don't know how much it hurts when I'm alone in silence all the time. Did you forget I'm alive? Why do you only call when you need something?

I am dying inside, and no one can hear my silent screams. Can you hear me? alone with my broken life, broken heart, broken spirit, broken soul.

I can't sleep, I can't eat, I can't breathe, I am drowning in my own tears. but no one knows or cares because actions speak louder than tears.

Each of you left me stranded alone in this world, not to even darkening my door, not a phone call, not even a word to me, unless you needed something from me. I am dying I told you, but you chose not to see me, how sad that is to know in my life you left me alone.

it did not seem to matter at all.

as hard as it was for me to swallow my pride, I decided it was better to let go of my desire to be loved and needed, and I told you how I was feeling, I asked you to care to be there, instead my words went past you like a brush of air on your face, you acted as if you never heard them at all today. can anyone explain why its so easy for some to just act as if their the only ones that matter in this life?

Now in my last days, my last glimpse of life on this earth, in my sight, I see people helping people, smiling and laughing, children playing and birds at flight, I feel the last warmth of sun on my face as I close my eyes. Drifting off to some other place a thought still remains in my mind, why why why.

The saddest part for me is knowing I really tried, then I gave up because of my pride. I said I am not going to beg you, I am not going to ask you again. Then I yelled saying,

"I'M DYING, I SAID, I'M DYING, I'M LEAVING THIS WORLD, CAN'T YOU HEAR MY WORDS?" oh, you did but you didn't care. I am sorry to have inconvenienced you with my such hurtful words, let me take my leave. Please remember in your tears, you had the chance to be with me, your tears will look good for the ones you absolutely love, and your tears will give you condolences because no one else knows you did not show your love for me while I was here.

your tears will mean nothing to me, because I will be dead, and if they mean anything at all let them be for yourselves, because you're not crying because of losing me, but for the stupidity of your actions you see. Please do not linger at my grave, it will only make you feel sadder for leaving me alone when I needed you most. Now please turn and be on your way, the only reason I am seeing you today is because once more you needed to ask me to help you again. even after I told you the truth of my life ending soon you just looked at me and asked for proof.

Who the hell would ask for proof that you were dying?, its as if you think I would lie, just to make you feel sad about my life. you know what go away and leave me in peace, I dont need your kind of company. God I know your real, if you hear me right now, Forgive them all, for they do not know what they have done, to this tender heart that once loved them, Amen.

The End

this is a story of a sad, sad ending of a life forgotten..Remember everyone needs someone.









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