Silence

I want silence.

Quiet.

Solitude.

An end to this crushing.

Crippling.

Tiring.

Soul rending shit that you’ve put me through.

Over.

And Over.

And Over.

Again.

I want Silence.

Stillness.

Peacefulness.

A chance to breath amidst this storm.

This chaos.

Little apocalypse.

You were everything.

You were too much.

I wasn’t enough.

I was never enough.

For you.

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Apparently, I need to bump the word count up to get this approved, so, here goes. This bit isn't poetry, but it's about the poem. At the time I didn't think I was going to make it through the loss of someone I loved--the loss of someone that had a profound impact on me yet turned their back on me. I get why he left, it probably wasn't even a hard choice for him but at the time it felt like a betrayal. I've grown a lot since then and this poem is a testament to that. I was so low that I'd contemplated suicide and now I'm engaged, looking at getting a better job than I could have hoped for back then, and working on so many passion projects I can barely breathe. So, keep your head up and weather the storm because you're made of stronger stuff than you know.